CloudLizard

Yep, I'm still alive. Just not posting a lot. I would, but the one thing I've been wanting to write about is something that I made a promise I wouldn't write about. More specifically, that I wouldn't post it on the internet, but really, what's the point of writing it if I can't do that? Not doing this for myself... mostly. Anyways, decided to read over a lot of my poems. Been psycho analyzing myself and just figured this would help with it. And it has, a bit. What I've come up with so far: I am tired. Just so damn tired. All my life I've had to step up to take the place/responsibility of someone else in my life. I've had to grow up too damn

At distracting myself from what I need to do. Not going to be graduating with as many credits as I would have wanted, but graduating none the less. The big senior project is scaring the hell out of me and the worst isn't even here yet. Blegh... So, today's Valentines Day and, just like every year of my life around this time, I'm doing nothing. I'm not sad though. Not happy either. I'm not with the one I want to be with, but the fact that they feel the same as I do sort of brings some bit of comfort. Just pretty content I guess. I'll probably go back to feeling pure anxiety soon enough. Tomorrow, most likely. At least I'm okay for now. I've

A time for people to make changes, make better of themselves. Maybe even start over. Although not influenced by the whole new year theme of resolutions, I have found this as a time of reflection(mostly because I've been allowed time to do so). Seems like a year wasted. At first glance, that is. Indeed, there hasn't been much success, but there has been lots of experience. Learning from the past, not exclusive to our own personal lives or years we've been alive, seems to help with forging a better future. Here's some quotes that are on my mind "You can't save the world, [my name]. It's impossible." She shouldn't have used the words "can't"